learn pipe organ

Today the organist in St Mary told me that he will teach me how to play the pipe organ in case he can't come one day. So excited to learn. .Actually the organ in St Mary is not really pipe organ, I think it is hybrid organ. will check the brand tomorrow. excited. :)

will come almost everyday for the weekday mass to play. it is better than just spending my time watching dunno-what movies haha.

snow

okay
i want a white Christmas badly
i really do
gosh...
can snow falls in South East Asia?
once...
at least....

if not
than just make me have a dream
of snow falling on my head
with me standing with someone special
with the smile of my whole family
perfect... LOL, dream on big girl!

Today was a secret I'll tell someday

Okay,
so today was exciting and tiring
I am super happy though
HUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

okay, interesting stuffs
I like Pocky. I dunno if I like Rocky. I decided not to buy. Too dangerous for me :p












I had this as my dessert for dinner. It was SUPER DELICIOUS. Gosh! It's been a long long time since I enjoyed my meal so much. I mean it was really really yummy. The cake has chocolate filling inside and it is hot, it is melting, and it is flowing down from inside when you cut the cake.

The ice cream is vanilla flavor. As expected, it is cold.

So cold vs hot. gosh! love it so much.


Can't tell the most interesting part though. maybe later. or never. i will keep that in mind for sure ;)

Why women cry?

I have got an email from a friend. I'd like to share though one of a friend, a boy replied that he still does not understand why women cry, LOL...

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry..

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said

"When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Teman

saya selalu berharap
bisa ketemu friend for life
saya berusaha sekuat tenaga
menjadi friends for life buat orang lain

tapi saya juga selalu merasa
ga pernah ada effort yang cukup
untuk menjadi teman terbaik untuk seseorang
i just become the most ordinary friend for one

i hate to be ordinary
i want to be extra ordinary
iya saya yang salah
saya yang arogan dan kebanyakan mau

tak apa
teman itu anugrah Bapa
saya treasure everyone of them
in the proportion that I am able to

saya mencoba mengasihi
tanpa harus mencampuri
saya mencoba ada
tanpa harus berteriak saya ada

cukup bagi saya menjadi passerby
cukup bagi saya tau kalau saya pernah
buat teman-teman bahagia
walaupun hanya sekali, itu cukup


images from www.gettyimages.com

Monday, 24 November 2008

Hari ini saya pergi jalan2 ke IKEA and Anchor Point. Sama siapa? Sendiri. Sendiri? Iya, sendiri. Saya suka koq jalan2 sendiri, ga harus ga enakan karena saya lama muter2nya, ga repot milih tempat makan, ga harus menghadapi awkward moment memikirkan harus ngobrolin apa. Yah, ga selalu sendiri itu enak. Cuma untuk tadi, karena perginya mendadak juga, daripada saya tidur melulu, mending saya pergi. Ya udah deh, pergi sendiri ;) Alhasil, ga beli apa2 koq. Cuci mata sambil mimpi2 punya rumah n nge dekor rumah dengan barang2 IKEA. LOL.

Inti cerita bukan pas saya jalan2 di IKEA ataupun Anchor Point. Tapi pas di MRT. huff. Ada satu orang bapak, lagi telepon pake HP, sambil teriak2. *sampe hujan lokal kena idung saya*. Sempet pissed off tapi yah, pas saya curi dengar (maap, Pak. Ga sengaja), rasanya si Bapak lagi ada kesulitan uang. Dia telepon ke orang yang dia panggil Mommy (bukan mommy aslinya kayanya), bilang gini : "My life is not then cents, mommy. you keep delaying, two weeks, than another two weeks, another two weeks, I need money to feed my family, you know". Huff. Then, teleponnya kayanya dimatiin terus sama si Mommy ini, jadi orang ini harus nelpon berulang kali. ngomong hal yang sama ke si Mommy ini.

Habis telepon, dia duduk di koridor MRT, sambil ngomong sendiri. Kayanya sih lagi misuh2, ngomel2 sendiri, dan in the end, dia nangis. Miris banget liatnya. Saya juga bingung harus gimana, ga tega liatnya, tapi saya takut dan ga kepikiran mau ngapain juga...

Dan orang2 di sekitar termasuk saya yang curi2 pandang dan curi2 dengar tentunya, pasang ekspresi muka yang beda2. Ada yang kesel (tu orang teriak2 soalnya), ada yang ngumpet2 liat dari belakang koran, ada yang liatin dengan muka prihatin, ada juga yang ngomongin dia (pake bahasa lain tentunya), ada yang pura2 liat tempat lain sambil sekali2 ngelirik (ini saya).

Saya cuma bisa berdoa dalam hati, moga2 Tuhan kasih jalan keluar ke dia. Sebelum dia jadi lebih tertekan dan akhirnya lost his mind. I hope he won't.

Pelajaran hari ini : banyak orang bukan berarti ga kesepian. Kesepian bisa menghidupkan dan juga mematikan.

Thank God, kesepian yang pernah dan sedang saya rasakan belom sampe tahap itu.

Lord, I pray for those people who are lonely and depressed, may your love accompany and comfort them. Amen.

*Pictures from www.gettyimages.com

Twilight (The Movie)

I am going to watch this movie next weekend. In Johor Baru. Since it will only launch on Dec 18th in Singapore (dunno what reason). It will play in Malaysia starting on Nov 27th. The worst thing is it will play in Indonesia starting on Feb 2009. Can you imagine the gap? Thankfully I am only a miles away from Malaysia.


Super excited. The soundtrack was the first demanded on the list some time ago. Moreover, the cast for James is cute. Jacob is also not bad. Jasper is also handsome. Gosh. I am starting to love boys with letter J.

Sunday, 23 November 2008

Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something, and has lost something...

means?

What Naomipratiwi Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic “Type A” personality. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

count your blessings and help others in need

sedang berpikir,
banyak sekali orang yang... begitu gampang.. di let down sama masalah2 kecil. oke mungkin banyak yang bilang, mungkin itu kecil buat orang luar yang lihat, tapi itu masalah besar buat yang mengalami. hmm. it might be true. everybody has their own problems, it's true juga. tapi juga bukan berarti kita harus lihat masalah sebegitu gedenya kan...

kalo lagi banyak masalah coba liat ke bawah. jangan liat ke atas. liat yang kurang, bukan liat yang lebih. kalo lagi ngerasa sepi dan helpless, bayangin orang2 kelaparan, mereka lebih helpless. ato bayangin orang2 yang harus dikirim ke negeri mana buat berperang, mereka lebih sepi pasti. kalo lagi berasa weary karena harus belajar, bayangin orang yang pengen banget sekolah tapi ga bisa sekolah. See, we are blessed in so many ways. dan itulah kenapa, menurut saya ga baik buat dwell in sadness and sorrow like we are the most miserable person in the world. Kadang moarning itu memang perlu, tapi sampe batas tertentu. harus bisa mengubahnya jadi suatu motivasi dan dorongan untuk menghidupi hidup dengan lebih baik...

Saya juga paling ga suka kalo ada orang ngeluh ga ada temen, ga ada yang perduli. selalu sendiri and bla bla bla. Gosh, look around. many people do care. but you are too blind to see it. Saya juga paling kesel sama orang yang kalo stress bilangnya mau mati segampang bilang mau pipis. ga tau apa kalo hidup itu gift paling berharga yang dikasih Tuhan...

liat ke sekeliling. banyak yang lebih ga beruntung. dan kita ada untuk membantu mereka. bukannya mengeluh as if masalah kita lebih menyedihkan..

random post doank sih. ga ada maksud apa2. buat ingetin saya juga kalo lagi error :p

any suggestion

here is the deal, i have finished my exam while my other friends haven't. So, I can't play with them, I can't disturb them, I can't ask them to go with me.

I am planning to start FYP next week. I want to relax a bit after such a long war (1 week not that long though).

Can anyone tell me any entertainment which is free, other than watching movie online? I am sick of it. I don't play games that much. I want to keep my novels for December, so I can't start reading them now (they are not free anyway).

So, anything in mind?

Keith Urban - Tonight I Wanna Cry

*spoiler : this song is quite sad, just skip if you want to keep your mood high =p *



I found this song in someone's note in Facebook today. It is not really what I am feeling at the moment. I once felt this way though. And I am sure I will feel this way again some time in the future. not in the near time, I hope. So, these are the lyrics

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

(Chorus:)
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

something I learnt

i just realized whenever I approach finish line
instead of running faster and with more spirit
I tend to slow down and lose spirit
maybe i am too tired, maybe i am just too easily satisfied

now is 3 am in the morning
i will have another exam tomorrow at 9 am
and this is the result of skipping lectures
and daydreaming while lectures

i tend to do less in something i don't like
something i am not interested in
which is not good for my future
sometimes we don't have any other choice than do it and face it

so, this is my consequence
i do not regret
at least i have learned something
i should put more attention to this in the future

finish line is just a meter away, run faster or your 50km will be useless...

David Archuleta - You Can

Mmmmm....

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things
come to those who wait.
Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Baby, when you look at me,
Tell me, what do you see?
Are these the eyes of
someone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here,
Well, now it all seems so clear.
Baby, you're the one I've been dreamin' of.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Only you can take me sailin'
in your deepest eyes.
Bring me to my knees and make me cry.
And no one's ever done this,
Everything was just a lie.
And I know, yes I know...

This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself,
It's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Show me that good things
come to those who wait

intermezzo

hmmmphhhh
saya ga teliti lagi
penyakit lama yang ga pernah hilang
ya sudah, sudah lewat, sesal tak guna

saatnya buka kumpulan lecture notes baru
saatnya menghadapi exam yang lain
tanpa harus berharap terlalu tinggi
tidak juga tak berharap apa2

simply come, do, and leave with lifted face
smile that I have done what I can do at the time
i can do more for sure
but not at that time, maybe another time

i dun want to be those people who sit with exhaustion
i want to be that person
who could see what is ahead rather what was behind
i have done what i could do, that should be enough

mama, kangen nih

mama
pa kabar di sana?
kangen...
udah pagi gini, belum juga bisa bobo

mama
tau ga sih ma
kalo di rumah ga bisa tidur
biasa liatin mama bobo =p

pagi2 bangun juga carinya mama
liat mama masak apa
kalo tau2 mama pergi
sedih deh ga diajak, sedih bangun kesiangan

paling seneng temenin mama ke pasar
bantuin mama masak
liatin mama kasih bumbu
berharap suatu hari bisa jadi seperti mama

duh mama
kangen berat nih
pengen rasanya dipeluk
di sini ga ada yang mau meluk =p

mama pasti udah merem
besok pasti bangun pagi
doain ya ma
mau ujian nih

ntar pas pulang desember
kita jalan2 ya
girls day out haha
ato mau coba clubbing mah *udah gila*

eh salam deh buat papa
kapan2 nomi kangenin papa
sekarang kangen mama dulu boleh donk
tuhan berkati mama

*hugs and kisses*
noni

Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BUk5SZ18

She spins and she sways
To whatever song plays
Without a care in the world
And I'm sitting here wearing
The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day
And there's still work to do
She's pulling at me
Saying "Dad, I need you

There's a ball at the castle
And I've been invited
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone...

She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says, "Dad, the prom is just one week away
And I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

She will be gone

Well, she came home today with a ring on her hand
Just glowing and telling us all they had planned
She says, "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
But I need to practice my dancing
Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh, I will dance with Cinderella
I don't want to miss even one song
'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone

Structures 3 + Adv. Steel Design + random things

just for my reminder...

Structures 3 exam will be 5 questions. 1(Truss displacement+rotation), 2(critical load using UDM matrix), 3(beam displacement+rotation), 4(frame, this one I will not choose), 5(critical load using differential method). So, hopefully I will be able to do this well.

Adv. Steel Design will be 4 questions. 1(truss analysis-connection check using CHS and RHS), 2(portal frame analysis and design), 3(multistorey frame + connection design), 4(plate girder). hmph... tough tough tough. nvm. still have time to catch up.

Random thing : CEM is really not interesting for me. no motivation even to finish reading the notes. haiz... why should i learn all of these ><

2nd random thing: I have listed down my wishlist novels and books for holiday (yeeey). I will buy Come Be My Light (about Mother Teresa) this weekend and will finish next week after my exams :) Others can wait :p

3rd random thing: I am thinking of buying dresses. I have so many occassions to attend which allows me to wear dress. I like wearing dresses, btw. But I rarely have the chance to wear it. Kind weird to wear dress to school :p My bad, it should be okay, shouldn't it? :p

4th random thing: I am bored. I am lazy. I am bad. today, I should finish my target. i MUST!

All the best for exams everybody!

CV4202 first battle this sem

Generally, it was okay. I was satisfied. I could remember what I should remember. The hard part is to relate the points with the question. yeah it's over and time to concentrate to next exams.

Okay, during the exam. there is this one guy who has a very very bad scent. I know that this is unavoidable. but doesn't he know an invention called deodorant. He could try to use some to reduce the scent. uuuggghhhh it made me dizzy, I can't stand it!!

anyway, the headache still remains. I need to take panadol soon. I can;t sleep. :(

exam

udah minggu exam nih. saya lagi takut sebenarnya. examnya mepet. waktu persiapan saya jadi sedikit. hmph. yasu belajar dulu. dadah

Jacob Black vs Edward Cullen

I am a werewolf. Means that I am more suitable for Jacob, unlike Bella in Twlight series. Jacob is younger, big, and very warm. I think I know who is he in real life. LOL. The other guy is more like Edward, cold but somehow romantic. But blogthings said I'd better bea werewolf than a vampire :p

You Are a Werewolf

You are moody and easily provoked. You are highly loyal and protective of those you love. While you can be intense at times, you are generally a laid back person. But if a fight comes your way, you will fight 'til the death if necessary. You seem normal to most people. No one understands how different you can be. It's like a switch flips for you sometimes - and then you're a completely different creature.

Are You a Vampire or a Werewolf?

number

Your Expression Number is 7

Very intelligent, you are usually thinking, introspecting, or analyzing. You have a good mind, and you are especially good at finding out the truth. Very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding. You tend to obsess over wisdom and hidden truths. You are likely to become a authority on any subject you undertake. Operating on a different wavelength, most people don't know you that well. Very logical and rational, at times you tend to lack emotion. So much so, that you often have times coping with emotional situations. You are not very adaptable - you may tend to be overly critical at times.

What's Your Expression Number?